Sad Dream

So I had this dream last night. Have you ever had those dreams where when you wake up you're still not quite sure if you're awake? Well this wasn't one of them :) When I woke up I knew I was awake. But the feelings for the dream stayed with me. Vividly. I have spent all morning trying to shake the overwhelming saddness I felt when I woke up this morning. The dream has to do with something bad that happened in the past. But in the dream it was happening again. Not the same way, not all the same people. But an emotional mess all the same.

I can't help but wondering about that. How is it that we can wake up from dreams and still have the feelings from what happen in the dream like it had really happened. I feel like I really experienced all the ups and downs of that dream. I'm so sad from what happened even though it didn't really happen. I still can't shake the saddness and no amount of joking with friends, family and co-workers today is shaking that saddness. Which sucks because it's not such a bad day, you know. I brought Freya with me to work and she is all playful and snuggly. Even though my boss is out of town and I have a million things to do I'm steadily working through my list getting things done one at a time. I don't feel overwhelmed by it. The horse is don't ok and even though I'm going to have to put him down soon I'm not really having to face that decision today. And the weather isn't that bad.

Freya enjoying her day at work.