Not happy with blog

I created a bellydancing journey blog that I've been ticking away at for a couple months. Just a few posts here and there. But now that I'm really getting into things I'm wanting to personalize my site more. I've been using blog.com for that blog and now that I'm trying to personalize things I am NOT happy. I don't know if it's just me but I find it confusing to do anything on that thing except for post blogs and even then it's not looking the way I would like it to look. So the place is hard to navigate and their aren't  a lot of options for personalizing things. Like you can choose from a number of their themes but to actually do your own banners and changing the layout and stuff, nope, notta unless you are willing to pay. The cheapest is $15 a year but thats just to basically add your own top/title banner. Thats it. Thats all you get. If you want different things the price goes up from there.

I like the set up here on blogger.com so much better. I can' change the layouts, there are themes sure, but you can really really customize them. My own background photo, my profile photo shows up. You can add pages that are really just links to other websites or you can have new pages to do whatever you want with them. Like I'm thinking of changing my bellydancing blog to here instead of just linking it. Or better yet, I could create a blog on blogger for the bellydance journey. Or something. I'm just gripping right now ~sigh~

Sad Dream

So I had this dream last night. Have you ever had those dreams where when you wake up you're still not quite sure if you're awake? Well this wasn't one of them :) When I woke up I knew I was awake. But the feelings for the dream stayed with me. Vividly. I have spent all morning trying to shake the overwhelming saddness I felt when I woke up this morning. The dream has to do with something bad that happened in the past. But in the dream it was happening again. Not the same way, not all the same people. But an emotional mess all the same.

I can't help but wondering about that. How is it that we can wake up from dreams and still have the feelings from what happen in the dream like it had really happened. I feel like I really experienced all the ups and downs of that dream. I'm so sad from what happened even though it didn't really happen. I still can't shake the saddness and no amount of joking with friends, family and co-workers today is shaking that saddness. Which sucks because it's not such a bad day, you know. I brought Freya with me to work and she is all playful and snuggly. Even though my boss is out of town and I have a million things to do I'm steadily working through my list getting things done one at a time. I don't feel overwhelmed by it. The horse is don't ok and even though I'm going to have to put him down soon I'm not really having to face that decision today. And the weather isn't that bad.

Freya enjoying her day at work.