If you choose to join me you should add me on the website. kdreamer. I hope to see you there!
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
November!!!
It's that time again! OMG it's November. Do you know what that means? That means 30 days and nights of crazy novel writing. For those of you not in the know, November is National Novel Writing Month. Where you attempt to write 50,000 words of a novel in just 30 days! It's absolute total awesomeness. I am once again participating. Yay!
If you choose to join me you should add me on the website. kdreamer. I hope to see you there!
If you choose to join me you should add me on the website. kdreamer. I hope to see you there!
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Sleep deprived, No More!
I've had sleeping issues for years. Insomnia, waking up a million times a night. OK, not a million but waking up constantly like every hour or half hour. I had gotten used to it. It was just a normal part of the night not to sleep well, to have night mares. I started thinking a good night's sleep was when I didn't have night mares and I only woke up once every hour. Awesome right? Hah! Some of you can relate. Not getting enough sleep sucks. But when you've been living like that for years, it just becomes a normal part of life. Which is totally lame.
I've tried all sorts of things. Like teas, essential oils, sleep routines, no electronics for an hour before bed, etc. Sometimes I felt down right desperate. Desperate for a decent night's sleep. Especially when its been days of insomnia and when I did sleep it would only be for an hour or two and I would wake up a tons of times during that short period. I talked to my doctar about it and she prescribed me a sleep aide. Luminesta. Have you looked at the possible side effects of that stuff? Holy crap is that scary. But I was desperate, however, I never got to try it. My insurance company, TRICARE, said we needed to try other things first or I would have to pay 100% out of pocket. Yikes! Those pills are freaking expensive. So I said forget it and and suffered on in silence.
Now I've always been a light sleeper. Those of you who have known me before the past 5/6 years are probably thinking. So you're waking up because of noises outside or inside or from the people in one of the adjourning apartments or or or. Yes, since I lost Zeus and some other stuff in my life went to hell. I have been even more of a light sleeper, waking up at every little noise since I don't completely feel safe. But that is a different kind of reason to wake up and my constantly waking up all night long wasn't just because of "things that go bump in the night" and my trust issues.
This was life and it wasn't getting better. I missed the nights of wonderful dreams of fighting bad guys and saving the world. Where when I woke up in the morning I would have to fight to get up, not because I didn't want to face the day but because I wanted to finish the story in my dream. I had places to be and people to save and, heck, when I'm awake my totally awesome super powers no longer exist.
And then, something changed...Two months ago I was scanning through the numerous daily facebook messages for my graduating class at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and I stumbled across a post. One of my classmates had a client who had been struggling with sleep. After talking to the client about all sorts of things relating to sleep he/she found out that the client uses her cell phone for an alarm clock. He/she explained the client about the signals that our cell phones are constantly giving off and how it can affect us. He/She explained all sorts of stuff about why and how but I was no longer paying attention (bad me) I got stuck on the cell phones for an alarm clock thing. Then there was the client testimonial. The client had decided to give it a go. Putting the cell phone on airplane mode at night so she could still use it for an alarm clock. At night, she and her husband would either move anything with a wifi signal out of the bedroom or they would put it on airplane mode for the night. Voila! At the two week check in with my classmate, she told him/her (I don't remember which) about how she and her husband had been sleeping soundly every night and no longer had sleep issues.
Well, what the heck! It was worth a try right? So that night I told my husband about it and explained that I wanted to give it a try. We both use our cell phones for alarm clocks. So before bed we set our alarms and put our phones on airplane mode. OH MY GOD!!! I had the best sleep of my life. The best sleep I've had in years! YEARS!!! It's been two months. I've slept through every night, only waking up occasionally to investigate weird noises (or when Dytie was having stomach issues and was throwing up throughout the night). I've had one night of insomnia ONE! I used Lavender Essential oil on my feet and spent a few minutes meditating and then was able to go to sleep. I've had a couple nights of issues waking up constantly. Both times we figured out that my husband had forgotten to put his phone on airplane mode. I started thinking about things and reading back through my journal and dream journals and was able to pinpoint when my sleep went to hell. That's right, you guessed it. Everything goes back to when we started sleeping with our cell phones next to the bed at night. It was before we ditched the alarm clock. Hmm...
So you might think this sounds a little hokey. But if you've been having sleep issues I say why not give it a try. I don't have all the facts but you can look up all the reasons why having your cell phone next to the bed at night is bad. You can spend lots of time researching it yourself. Or you could give it a try and see what happens. If you don't want to put your cell phone on airplane mode, or you need to have it on at night for some reason. Move it out of the room. Get an alarm clock. Put your cell phone in the living room (or some other room then the bedroom) and just turn up the volume so you can hear if it goes off at night. There are a million reasons why having a good nights sleep is so important. Heck, there are probably billions of reasons. Your health, your sleep, your life is totally worth giving it a try.
I've tried all sorts of things. Like teas, essential oils, sleep routines, no electronics for an hour before bed, etc. Sometimes I felt down right desperate. Desperate for a decent night's sleep. Especially when its been days of insomnia and when I did sleep it would only be for an hour or two and I would wake up a tons of times during that short period. I talked to my doctar about it and she prescribed me a sleep aide. Luminesta. Have you looked at the possible side effects of that stuff? Holy crap is that scary. But I was desperate, however, I never got to try it. My insurance company, TRICARE, said we needed to try other things first or I would have to pay 100% out of pocket. Yikes! Those pills are freaking expensive. So I said forget it and and suffered on in silence.
Now I've always been a light sleeper. Those of you who have known me before the past 5/6 years are probably thinking. So you're waking up because of noises outside or inside or from the people in one of the adjourning apartments or or or. Yes, since I lost Zeus and some other stuff in my life went to hell. I have been even more of a light sleeper, waking up at every little noise since I don't completely feel safe. But that is a different kind of reason to wake up and my constantly waking up all night long wasn't just because of "things that go bump in the night" and my trust issues.
This was life and it wasn't getting better. I missed the nights of wonderful dreams of fighting bad guys and saving the world. Where when I woke up in the morning I would have to fight to get up, not because I didn't want to face the day but because I wanted to finish the story in my dream. I had places to be and people to save and, heck, when I'm awake my totally awesome super powers no longer exist.
And then, something changed...Two months ago I was scanning through the numerous daily facebook messages for my graduating class at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and I stumbled across a post. One of my classmates had a client who had been struggling with sleep. After talking to the client about all sorts of things relating to sleep he/she found out that the client uses her cell phone for an alarm clock. He/she explained the client about the signals that our cell phones are constantly giving off and how it can affect us. He/She explained all sorts of stuff about why and how but I was no longer paying attention (bad me) I got stuck on the cell phones for an alarm clock thing. Then there was the client testimonial. The client had decided to give it a go. Putting the cell phone on airplane mode at night so she could still use it for an alarm clock. At night, she and her husband would either move anything with a wifi signal out of the bedroom or they would put it on airplane mode for the night. Voila! At the two week check in with my classmate, she told him/her (I don't remember which) about how she and her husband had been sleeping soundly every night and no longer had sleep issues.
Well, what the heck! It was worth a try right? So that night I told my husband about it and explained that I wanted to give it a try. We both use our cell phones for alarm clocks. So before bed we set our alarms and put our phones on airplane mode. OH MY GOD!!! I had the best sleep of my life. The best sleep I've had in years! YEARS!!! It's been two months. I've slept through every night, only waking up occasionally to investigate weird noises (or when Dytie was having stomach issues and was throwing up throughout the night). I've had one night of insomnia ONE! I used Lavender Essential oil on my feet and spent a few minutes meditating and then was able to go to sleep. I've had a couple nights of issues waking up constantly. Both times we figured out that my husband had forgotten to put his phone on airplane mode. I started thinking about things and reading back through my journal and dream journals and was able to pinpoint when my sleep went to hell. That's right, you guessed it. Everything goes back to when we started sleeping with our cell phones next to the bed at night. It was before we ditched the alarm clock. Hmm...
So you might think this sounds a little hokey. But if you've been having sleep issues I say why not give it a try. I don't have all the facts but you can look up all the reasons why having your cell phone next to the bed at night is bad. You can spend lots of time researching it yourself. Or you could give it a try and see what happens. If you don't want to put your cell phone on airplane mode, or you need to have it on at night for some reason. Move it out of the room. Get an alarm clock. Put your cell phone in the living room (or some other room then the bedroom) and just turn up the volume so you can hear if it goes off at night. There are a million reasons why having a good nights sleep is so important. Heck, there are probably billions of reasons. Your health, your sleep, your life is totally worth giving it a try.
Monday, May 5, 2014
It's May!
It's May. As in the fifth month of the year. Oh my God where did the time go? As with the beginning of each month, I sat down to put together my goals for the month. But this time I started getting depressed. It's the 5th month of the year and I haven't accomplished what I wanted to by now. I started looking at all my monthly and weekly and quarterly goals. Yes, I like lists, and goals and I love the sense of accomplishment from achieving those goals. Of working each day towards a better tomorrow and an awesome future. But as I sat there and saw all the lack of check marks next to my many goals, I started to bum hard. But then, something hit me. Yeah, so I haven't checked off many goals this year, but why not look at all the positive things I have done so far this year. If you look at my yearly goal list, there are some things already checked off. But I've done more then just those things.
As I teach my clients, so I started to do. I started looking at all the positive things I have been doing. All the good. And I started to feel better. So what if I haven't accomplished the big things. I have gotten closer to all of them. I have made a bunch of positive changes one step at a time. Changes I haven't been thinking about because they've become habits. Like eating healthy breakfasts. 5 out of 7 days a week I manage to eat a healthy breakfast. This is a HUGE accomplishment for me. Since in the past I couldn't even say 5 days out of the month I ate any breakfast, let alone a healthy one. But this isn't something I think of much now. It's just something I do. I wake up, take the totally awesome thyroid pill, put together my breakfast smoothie to blend and drink in a few hours and move on with my day. And I change things about my smoothie depending on how I'm feeling that day. Or I even change what I eat. I no longer eat instant oatmeal as the only breakfast I remember to eat later. Why? Because I actually paid attention to my body and realized that every time I eat that stuff it totally drains me. Slows me down, gives me brain fog, takes away all my energy and ability to focus on ANYTHING. I'm more aware of what I eat and when I eat it. I'm making much better choices with my food. I eat better things and I eat in better portion sizes. Eating better makes me feel better. And my life is ruled by feelings. So eating better = feel better = better day = better life.
But the good choices are going beyond just food. I'm spending more time outdoors. Even when the weather isn't awesome (which it totally has been lately) I notice the desire to walk my dogs and spend the evening outside, so I do it. I'm happier, healthier and I've found the inner peace that I've been searching for. I'm not saying the peace is always there or that its always easy to find, cause there are times when I'm taking deep breaths and counting. Telling myself not to strangle someone who is being astronomically stupid.
I've reached out of my comfort zone and embraced some of the things I used to do years ago. Things I stopped doing as my self confidence dropped. Like talking to people in the grocery line and well, anywhere I happen to be at. I'm not an extroverted person. I like small intimate gatherings and I like spending a lot of time by myself or with my dogs in the middle of no where. But ask any of my friends and you'll find that most of them were people I felt a need to randomly strike up a conversation with. This is something that has happened very few times in the last 5 years. But over the last few months its happening more and more. And when I run into someone and start talking about things, I don't feel the urge to run away as soon as I can get the conversation stopped. I take the time to talk to them, to learn about them, to connect to people. Over the last few months I have met some amazing people and made great connections that will help me, my family, my friends, and my business in the future. I've also embraced that some times it really is not what you know but WHO you know. And I'm getting to know people. Stopping for a smile and a short chat. Brightening their day and in turn they are brightening mine. I'm once again learning to trust my intuition, my inner voice.
I challenge you to take a few minutes, just 10 or 15, and think about the positive things and changes that you've made in your life. Nothing is to small. It's so easy for us to focus on the bad but it takes effort to focus on the good. So put a little effort into thinking about the good things in life. You'll appreciate it in the short and long run.
As I teach my clients, so I started to do. I started looking at all the positive things I have been doing. All the good. And I started to feel better. So what if I haven't accomplished the big things. I have gotten closer to all of them. I have made a bunch of positive changes one step at a time. Changes I haven't been thinking about because they've become habits. Like eating healthy breakfasts. 5 out of 7 days a week I manage to eat a healthy breakfast. This is a HUGE accomplishment for me. Since in the past I couldn't even say 5 days out of the month I ate any breakfast, let alone a healthy one. But this isn't something I think of much now. It's just something I do. I wake up, take the totally awesome thyroid pill, put together my breakfast smoothie to blend and drink in a few hours and move on with my day. And I change things about my smoothie depending on how I'm feeling that day. Or I even change what I eat. I no longer eat instant oatmeal as the only breakfast I remember to eat later. Why? Because I actually paid attention to my body and realized that every time I eat that stuff it totally drains me. Slows me down, gives me brain fog, takes away all my energy and ability to focus on ANYTHING. I'm more aware of what I eat and when I eat it. I'm making much better choices with my food. I eat better things and I eat in better portion sizes. Eating better makes me feel better. And my life is ruled by feelings. So eating better = feel better = better day = better life.
But the good choices are going beyond just food. I'm spending more time outdoors. Even when the weather isn't awesome (which it totally has been lately) I notice the desire to walk my dogs and spend the evening outside, so I do it. I'm happier, healthier and I've found the inner peace that I've been searching for. I'm not saying the peace is always there or that its always easy to find, cause there are times when I'm taking deep breaths and counting. Telling myself not to strangle someone who is being astronomically stupid.
I've reached out of my comfort zone and embraced some of the things I used to do years ago. Things I stopped doing as my self confidence dropped. Like talking to people in the grocery line and well, anywhere I happen to be at. I'm not an extroverted person. I like small intimate gatherings and I like spending a lot of time by myself or with my dogs in the middle of no where. But ask any of my friends and you'll find that most of them were people I felt a need to randomly strike up a conversation with. This is something that has happened very few times in the last 5 years. But over the last few months its happening more and more. And when I run into someone and start talking about things, I don't feel the urge to run away as soon as I can get the conversation stopped. I take the time to talk to them, to learn about them, to connect to people. Over the last few months I have met some amazing people and made great connections that will help me, my family, my friends, and my business in the future. I've also embraced that some times it really is not what you know but WHO you know. And I'm getting to know people. Stopping for a smile and a short chat. Brightening their day and in turn they are brightening mine. I'm once again learning to trust my intuition, my inner voice.
I challenge you to take a few minutes, just 10 or 15, and think about the positive things and changes that you've made in your life. Nothing is to small. It's so easy for us to focus on the bad but it takes effort to focus on the good. So put a little effort into thinking about the good things in life. You'll appreciate it in the short and long run.
Sunday, March 2, 2014
Day 4 -Confidence where did you come from?
Its a beautiful day in Juneau. I made a crock pot stew for the first time in my life, spent hours listening to the IIN March Conference live on my lap top, and got great information. I even took Freya for a walk on the beach. The tide was up high, there were dogs everywhere and it was freezing cold and bright and sunny out.
Life seems so much different these days. Cooking food, learning new things, getting clients for my business, exploring new places and people with a dog at my side. These are the kinds of things I haven't done much of in years. They used to be an every day part of my life. Zeus and I would explore everywhere and introduce ourselves to random strangers who would later become my best friends. (Here's a shout out to Lydia, my best friend and soul sister who was met when I used to be confident and go out of my way to introduce myself to perfect strangers. Who knows what she was thinking when I introduced myself to her). But that was years ago and over the last 6 years I've lost confidence in myself, gained a lot of weight and discovered that staying home and reading my books was better then being outside. Which is such total nonsense I LOVE being outside and I love reading books. One of those shouldn't have come to dominate the other. But I lost my confidence in myself and everything I do and I allowed life events to lower my self esteem dramatically.
Things are changing, for the better. Today I walked Freya on the beach. No thought to it, just grabbed the dog, ran my eron (how the heck to you spell that?) and hit the freezing cold beach before heading home to school work and prepping for client meetings this week. No worries, no fears, no negative self talk. Just enjoying the moment, enjoying life. It was beautiful. While I mentally feel like I should go walk/run/job 10 miles like I used to with Zeus, I physically can only do a lot less then that. And that's ok. That's a huge step for me today. Realizing that its ok to do what I can do. One day I'll be there again. Walking my dogs, hiking my dogs, running my dogs, up and over mountains, all times of the day and night, by myself and with friends. But right now, I can't do that and that's ok. That's perfectly fine. What I can do is wonderful and I'm going to enjoy every moment of it and before I know it, I'll be able to do what I used to do, and I'll enjoy every moment of that to :)
Life seems so much different these days. Cooking food, learning new things, getting clients for my business, exploring new places and people with a dog at my side. These are the kinds of things I haven't done much of in years. They used to be an every day part of my life. Zeus and I would explore everywhere and introduce ourselves to random strangers who would later become my best friends. (Here's a shout out to Lydia, my best friend and soul sister who was met when I used to be confident and go out of my way to introduce myself to perfect strangers. Who knows what she was thinking when I introduced myself to her). But that was years ago and over the last 6 years I've lost confidence in myself, gained a lot of weight and discovered that staying home and reading my books was better then being outside. Which is such total nonsense I LOVE being outside and I love reading books. One of those shouldn't have come to dominate the other. But I lost my confidence in myself and everything I do and I allowed life events to lower my self esteem dramatically.
Things are changing, for the better. Today I walked Freya on the beach. No thought to it, just grabbed the dog, ran my eron (how the heck to you spell that?) and hit the freezing cold beach before heading home to school work and prepping for client meetings this week. No worries, no fears, no negative self talk. Just enjoying the moment, enjoying life. It was beautiful. While I mentally feel like I should go walk/run/job 10 miles like I used to with Zeus, I physically can only do a lot less then that. And that's ok. That's a huge step for me today. Realizing that its ok to do what I can do. One day I'll be there again. Walking my dogs, hiking my dogs, running my dogs, up and over mountains, all times of the day and night, by myself and with friends. But right now, I can't do that and that's ok. That's perfectly fine. What I can do is wonderful and I'm going to enjoy every moment of it and before I know it, I'll be able to do what I used to do, and I'll enjoy every moment of that to :)
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| Freya enjoying sunshine and watching the scary little dogs run on the beach. |
Saturday, March 1, 2014
Day 3 - oh crap
Today is the first day of a conference for IIN, and of course they're on Eastern standard time. So when they start at 10am its 6am in Alaska. I got up right at 6 this morning and hobbled half awake to boot up my laptop and join the conference from afar. Heartburn was bugging me so I suffered through some tums as I blinked wearily at my screen and logged on. Taking a moment to be paranoid and put a cover on my webcam, I grabbed my water bottle and rinsed my mouth of the horrible after taste of tums. I don't know what was wrong with me as a kid that I thought those things tasted great. As I connected to the conference and slowly woke up it hit me. Yay I can take my pill and poof like magic I'll feel better and then in an hour I could eat breakfast and man today is just going to be a great freaking day. Oh crap. I took tums already. Did you know that you have to wait at least 4 hours after taking the thyroid meds in order to take an antacid? Double crap, I bet that means I have to wait 4 hours now before I can take my thyroid meds and I have to take them on an empty stomach. So a minimum of 2 hours after I eat and I can't eat for at least an hour after taking my meds. What the heck do I do now....great start to the day. :( bummer I don't want to eat until I take my pill but I just took tums...yep, i hate tums. Stupid heartburn
Friday, February 28, 2014
Day 2 on Thyroid Meds
Bummer, not feeling as awesome as yesterday but hey that's soo my fault. I was feeling so great yesterday I decided to eat some candy hearts full of chemicals, because I felt good and they tasted good. Not thinking about the fact that all the food dyes in them give me food allergy migraines. Despite the pain in my head, I still feel better then normal. I just don't feel like doing anything. However I discovered that once I killed the light in my office and closed the blinds and stopped trying to move around much, I was able to function pretty normally the rest of the day! Which never happens with my food allergy migraines. Those things lay me up, barily able to do ANYTHING for 3 days. I mean no sound, no light and good god stay away from me, I spend as much time as I can laying in bed feeling truly miserable.
Yesterday I posted on facebook about how great I was feeling and got a lot of "I'm jealous" responses. I was shocked that so many of my friends had been experiencing thyroid issues and I never knew. In the process a friend told me about how all her thyroid tests had come back normal so she is only trying a thyroid supplement and it only lets her feel a little better. All of my tests for YEARS have come back in the normal range, but I have symptoms of hypothyroidism. I even have a huge goiter that causes me all sorts of problems. I've had ultra sounds done and seen a specialist. I hated that specialist. He sat for an hour at his computer and typed away and finally responded with telling me that when my thyroid got so large it was having serious issues functioning, then he would have it taken out and put me on medicine for the rest of my life. That's it. That's what came out of the hour session with a specialist. That and a bill for over $500. Wow, so freaking ridiculous. Oh and he told me because my metabolism was so slow if I wanted to lose weight I would have to starve myself and exercise a lot. I ignored my thyroid stuff for a while after that.
In the last year I've ran into 2 strangers who started talking to me about thyroid issues. Why, because my goiter is so large that a blind person could see it in the dark. Ignorant people could see that my enlarged neck had nothing to do with me being so over weight. These people had had thyroid issues of their own and they both urged me to not give up. To keep looking for answers and trying things. One lady was so passionate about it because of her own negative experiences and it taking years for her to come up with answers and by then she had to get surgery and get hers removed and now shes stuck on meds for the rest of her life. In the past 3 months 2 of my co-workers have ended up having thyroid issues. One had thyroid cancer and had it removed and the other had to have a nodule removed as well. These things have started to scare me and made me really want to learn more about my thyroid issues before they got worse.
Through my studies at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition I've been learning that there are natural ways to heal your thyroid through things like nutrition, food, vitamin supplements. But it takes years and I was getting scared. I'll explain another time why it takes time. But for now, think on this, if took years for your body to be damaged so why wouldn't it take years for it to heal?!? So tests, more tests but this time through an integrative wellness nurse. Who looks at things from all different angles and not just what the tests show. We did more blood work and will be doing another ultra sound and a symptom write up and iodine tests. After much research, testing and talking we decided to put me on a low dose of a hypothyroid medicine and see how I respond. This is a TEMPORARY thing. I will not be on meds for the rest of my life. But if the response is good then it helps me get my life back on track and then I will be able to start naturally healing myself. Some of you have no idea how hard it is to function in this state. So my immediate response has been good. We'll see what my blood work says in a couple weeks after being on the meds. And the results of the updated ultra sound.
So my advice to you. Don't give up. Keep learning and researching and pushing to find answers. We only live once and its worth it to have the best life we can.
Yesterday I posted on facebook about how great I was feeling and got a lot of "I'm jealous" responses. I was shocked that so many of my friends had been experiencing thyroid issues and I never knew. In the process a friend told me about how all her thyroid tests had come back normal so she is only trying a thyroid supplement and it only lets her feel a little better. All of my tests for YEARS have come back in the normal range, but I have symptoms of hypothyroidism. I even have a huge goiter that causes me all sorts of problems. I've had ultra sounds done and seen a specialist. I hated that specialist. He sat for an hour at his computer and typed away and finally responded with telling me that when my thyroid got so large it was having serious issues functioning, then he would have it taken out and put me on medicine for the rest of my life. That's it. That's what came out of the hour session with a specialist. That and a bill for over $500. Wow, so freaking ridiculous. Oh and he told me because my metabolism was so slow if I wanted to lose weight I would have to starve myself and exercise a lot. I ignored my thyroid stuff for a while after that.
In the last year I've ran into 2 strangers who started talking to me about thyroid issues. Why, because my goiter is so large that a blind person could see it in the dark. Ignorant people could see that my enlarged neck had nothing to do with me being so over weight. These people had had thyroid issues of their own and they both urged me to not give up. To keep looking for answers and trying things. One lady was so passionate about it because of her own negative experiences and it taking years for her to come up with answers and by then she had to get surgery and get hers removed and now shes stuck on meds for the rest of her life. In the past 3 months 2 of my co-workers have ended up having thyroid issues. One had thyroid cancer and had it removed and the other had to have a nodule removed as well. These things have started to scare me and made me really want to learn more about my thyroid issues before they got worse.
Through my studies at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition I've been learning that there are natural ways to heal your thyroid through things like nutrition, food, vitamin supplements. But it takes years and I was getting scared. I'll explain another time why it takes time. But for now, think on this, if took years for your body to be damaged so why wouldn't it take years for it to heal?!? So tests, more tests but this time through an integrative wellness nurse. Who looks at things from all different angles and not just what the tests show. We did more blood work and will be doing another ultra sound and a symptom write up and iodine tests. After much research, testing and talking we decided to put me on a low dose of a hypothyroid medicine and see how I respond. This is a TEMPORARY thing. I will not be on meds for the rest of my life. But if the response is good then it helps me get my life back on track and then I will be able to start naturally healing myself. Some of you have no idea how hard it is to function in this state. So my immediate response has been good. We'll see what my blood work says in a couple weeks after being on the meds. And the results of the updated ultra sound.
So my advice to you. Don't give up. Keep learning and researching and pushing to find answers. We only live once and its worth it to have the best life we can.
Thursday, February 27, 2014
Thyroid Meds Day 1
I'm on top of the world!
That is how I've felt all day. I can't remember feeling so well. I have more energy that I can imagine but its not "too" much you know. I feel like I can do anything I want to do. I'm more focused, not so foggy and slow. Normally I crash after every meal and right after work. Naps are my best friend but sometimes they just don't revive me enough to function like a human being. I've put off medication for years. I don't want medication. I hate being on pills and I'm not good about remembering to take them. I've been told that once your thyroid is messed up, it's messed up for life. But I'm learning that isn't true. Don't always believe what one health professional tells you. Do some research of your own and become well educated. New information is always coming out and the person you're seeing might not know. But they also might know things you wont find easy so make sure to talk to them about what you're reading and learning.
That is how I've felt all day. I can't remember feeling so well. I have more energy that I can imagine but its not "too" much you know. I feel like I can do anything I want to do. I'm more focused, not so foggy and slow. Normally I crash after every meal and right after work. Naps are my best friend but sometimes they just don't revive me enough to function like a human being. I've put off medication for years. I don't want medication. I hate being on pills and I'm not good about remembering to take them. I've been told that once your thyroid is messed up, it's messed up for life. But I'm learning that isn't true. Don't always believe what one health professional tells you. Do some research of your own and become well educated. New information is always coming out and the person you're seeing might not know. But they also might know things you wont find easy so make sure to talk to them about what you're reading and learning.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Back in black...or maybe pink
I was going to Yoga class. Finally! I've only said I would make it to class and not made it for over a year now. I have the gym membership and the couple times I've been to the class I've enjoyed it. But it's been over a year and I'm in worse shape then I was last time. But this time I wasn't going to let anything stop me. The clothes were clean and I finally had a working vehicle so I wasn't limited to the bus schedule or someone else's schedule. I was feeling good. My hair was in a pony tail, I had my yoga pants on and a comfortable tank top that went down over my hips so it wouldn't be showing off my fat to anyone else in class. I took a moment to check myself in the mirror. CRINGE Oh my god I was wearing a lot of black! Black yoga pants and the black tank top. The only saving grace was that my black sports bras are too tight now so I'd gone with a teal one. Which matched the teal on my black and teal tennis shoes.
I found myself frowning at the mirror. I understand wearing black when you're hugly overweight like I am. Black is slimming right?!? Bah hummbug this black was not making me look slimming. In fact if was feeling rather depressing. I'd thought that I've been doing better moving away from the all black thing I did in high school. I had started to add some white and moved on to blue while I was in high school. Over the last 10 years I've slowly added other colors into the mix. It was rather shocking to see myself in all black again. But I wasn't in all black. Not really. I had the teal bra poking out and the teal on my shoes that would be kicked off at the door. But my black yoga pants also had a pink stripe at the waist. Ah ha! I have colors on! With that smile of satisfaction the bounce came back into my step as I headed off to Yoga class.
But on my way to class I started to laugh. How could I have possibly thought I had to much black on. Look around me. I have my pink bag, with my pink water bottle and my pink yoga mat. I also was wearing a pink jacket. Oh my god when did I change from all black to all pink! PINK! of all colors. Once again the only saving grace was that teal sports bra peeking out. After all, I had chosen the teal one over the pink one because it was closer and I needed to get out the door without any more excuses. Because by golly I was going to make it to that damned Yoga class if it killed me. But now, I did it in pink. Oh if my friends from high school could see me now...
I found myself frowning at the mirror. I understand wearing black when you're hugly overweight like I am. Black is slimming right?!? Bah hummbug this black was not making me look slimming. In fact if was feeling rather depressing. I'd thought that I've been doing better moving away from the all black thing I did in high school. I had started to add some white and moved on to blue while I was in high school. Over the last 10 years I've slowly added other colors into the mix. It was rather shocking to see myself in all black again. But I wasn't in all black. Not really. I had the teal bra poking out and the teal on my shoes that would be kicked off at the door. But my black yoga pants also had a pink stripe at the waist. Ah ha! I have colors on! With that smile of satisfaction the bounce came back into my step as I headed off to Yoga class.
But on my way to class I started to laugh. How could I have possibly thought I had to much black on. Look around me. I have my pink bag, with my pink water bottle and my pink yoga mat. I also was wearing a pink jacket. Oh my god when did I change from all black to all pink! PINK! of all colors. Once again the only saving grace was that teal sports bra peeking out. After all, I had chosen the teal one over the pink one because it was closer and I needed to get out the door without any more excuses. Because by golly I was going to make it to that damned Yoga class if it killed me. But now, I did it in pink. Oh if my friends from high school could see me now...
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